OH BOY, I should have stayed in bed

He who believes is strong; he who doubts is weak. Strong convictions precede great actions.
- Louisa May Alcott



So I totally should have stayed in bed today. I got to work and forgot my glasses so work was really difficult today! I am on the computer for 8 hours a day and have to read stuff to people at times & boy was that difficult!! I did find them when I got home though! So I have them on now! My eyesight is getting so bad! It's horrible. I have always had such great sight, that I have no idea what has happened.

Then throughout the day I got a little freaked out, ok a lot freaked out because my choking was really bad while I was eating. I had egg salad and a banana for lunch. Yea, not a good combination, but the texture was the easiest to eat & swallow. I coughed for a long time, I thought I was going to be sick.

I then had a bad headache and spoke to one of the nurses (who is my friend also) at work and I had her check my head because the right side of the back of my head felt like I had a lump, turns out, my head is swollen. Then tonight, my friend Susan who is also a nurse, checked it and said that the right side was definitely swollen. It hurts so bad, I hate that no matter what I take, nothing helps! I am so tired of complaining about it, that I actually don't complain much all day, I just keep it to myself, but I know others can see me struggling. My stuttering is really getting bad too. OH & forget about my Memory, hello, what memory? I forget so many things that I shouldn't forget! I know the last few months I have forgotten some very important appointments and stuff but I just can't help it! The pressure in my head is so bad.

So, I didn't eat too much today. Pineapple & watermelon for breakfast, and then the banana & egg salad for lunch and then  2 pieces of string cheese. Other than that, not eating a lot right now, but I am trying. I really am. Being down the 26.5 lbs is awesome, and I know it will stay off, but this much, this fast is not on purpose, I can't help that it's coming off a lot more lately, it's because I have not been able to eat.

Well today my very good friend & coworker & lifestyle change buddy, had to put her precious baby girl dog Shelby to sleep! My heart aches for all of them. Shelby was 13 years old and had cancer. Julie got her for graduation. I feel so bad! RIP SHELBY!!!!

Hope you all have a great night!

Godspeed...
Jenn