Determination, patience and courage are the only things needed to improve any situation.
So, today was a little better. Ok, a lot better to some degree! Life is what you make it, and I decided when I woke up this morning that I was going to give it all I got, Like I usually do, but I was a little quieter at work but I was doing some research on my Chiari Malformation. Ugh, there is so much to learn. So then tonight, I found out, that since I have not had it treated in 12 months or less, that it can not be counted as a preexisting condition, which is awesome!!! That will help me so much.
Today Kim decided she was going to join Lexi. Amber & I on our trip to Florida. Which will be really good, not just because Lexi adores her, but because the 4 of us are going to have a great time. Lexi has Amber and I have Kim to have fun with. So it will be awesome. I am going to get to see some old high school friends, and some old friends from when I lived in Florida and of course meet some new friends that I have made through other friends. YAY!!! So excited.
So, some of you know me really well, and some of you don't know me well at all. I have been very depressed, but I want to assure everyone, that I would NEVER entertain the thought of hurting myself. NO MATTER HOW bad life gets for me, GIVING UP, and hurting myself WILL NEVER BE AN OPTION! I LOVE MY LIFE, with the good, bad & the ugly! And let me tell you, I have had lots of ugly lately!
When I post here, it's where I lay it all out. I beat up on myself and I pick myself back up! I reread my posts all the time because I can't always remember what I wrote! So rest assured, I WILL NEVER HURT MYSELF!!! Thank you for the concerns, but I am really ok! I wake up every day, and Thank God that I am awake, even in the pain I am in....God has a plan for me, and my daughter is the reason I get up and get moving every day! I would never quit! QUITTERS NEVER WIN!!!!
So, today my food intake, I had 3 hard boiled eggs for breakfast. I ran out of fruit and didn't have time to go get any. Then for lunch I had a jr cheeseburger on a plate, no bun of course and a baked potato, then for dinner, I had grilled chicken in garlic, on a flour wrap and put lettuce on it, and had some green beans. Now, the wrap should have been lettuce and not the flour wrap, but I wanted it so I had it! NO I am not quitting my program. I just felt like having something so I did. I figured I have had a headache, (not a migraine) for a few days, so why not just have it! It was 170 calories so that wasn't too bad. I am considering going to gluten free, so I have to see how it goes! I will tell you, YES I got a stronger headache after eating the wrap! NO doubt! So I know I definitely must have a wheat & gluten allergy. Well I'll be taking care of that soon enough.
Oh and I forgot, I lost another 2 lbs this week, bringing my loss to 23 1/2 lbs loss! WOO HOO! YAY ME!!!
GODSPEED!!!!
Jenn
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