Thinking will not overcome fear but action will.
- W. Clement Stone
Today was a long day... but it was a good day. I was very busy at work, which was really good! I like when we're busy, but I was really tired today. Probably because I didn't have much coffee.
I am such a boring eater. I go with whatever I am in the mood for, and lately, it's been hard boiled eggs, so I had one for breakfast, a banana, a salad and then I put the little bit of chicken & peppers & onions in it from last nights dinner then I had an apple for a late afternoon snack. Then tonight, I had a hamburger on a plate with some potatoes. I'm glad I have not had to give up potatoes. I LOVE THEM! They are my favorite starch. I was talking again to some friends during lunch saying I am doing really well wtih my new eating style, I will tell you this though, I'm getting bored of the normal stuff, so I will be changing my menu up ALOT!!! I have gotten some recipes from a friend of mine and then I will be searching the internet tomorrow night for some really good recipes.
My daily quote at the top of this is something I was thinking about today. I FEAR Being thin... I have discovered this before, but continued to ignore it. I really am afraid to be thin. So I figured I have to talk about this, because it's something that I can't overcome unless I talk about it.
I fear being thin because I HATE attention from men.... Plain & Simple... My weight has been my armour for all these years,so that men don't notice me, and then they can't hurt me and everytime I start to do well & get more attention from men, I get freaked out and the weight comes back on because I sabotage myself.
The funny thing is, I have an amazing man in my life this time who LOVES ME just the way I am. So, I am not doing this for him, or for my daughter, or for anyone. I am going to stick to this and do it for me. I have said that I always fail at this and I have overcome so much in my life and I have. I kick myself because I just don't want to live like this. I want to be able to run, really run, and do lots of things without feeling tired all the time, and I know that I can only do that, by making these changes.
I know that if I don't do this, if I don't take action then all my thinking will not make the fear go away! I can only overcome the fear by finally doing something about it. I need to stop Talking about it, and walk the walk! SO, tomorrow will hopefully be another good day.
Well I am exhausted so I am heading to sleep. Tomorrows post will hopefully be more exciting.
I hope you all have a good night...
Godspeed.
Jenn
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