Disciplining yourself to do what you know is right and important, although difficult, is the high road to pride, self esteem, and personal satisfaction.~~ Brain Tracy
I decided I was going to start today with a quote, and if I remember, I'm going to try to start each post with one. A friend said to me today, where do you get your wisdom from and all your quotes from, I think they're great! I Said, I need to post them on my face book status every day because it helps me stay positive. Because if I didn't, the demons of depression would kick in, so I am always looking for some way to find something positive to say to myself, even if my day is not starting out so postive!
With that said, today was a very emotional day for me. 14 years ago, I gave birth to the most amazing little girl that God could have ever trusted me with. Lexi is the light of my life. She is the reason I have always fought so hard to be such a good person. To stay clean, and to just be a good role model for her/ I am not perfect by any means. I fall all the time. But I am most proud of the young lady she is becoming, and she has so much potential to continue to grow. She is just an amazing human being. Even if she wasn't my child, I'd think that of her! She has an amazing spirit. She just makes me beam from pride every time I look at her. Can you say "PROUD MAMA"? YUP, that's me.
So today being her birthday, we had bought ice cream cake yesterday and cheese cake, both of which is my favorite desserts! Especially NY Cheese cake! So, I decided to stay focused all day on the "Life Style changes" I have made in the last 3 days. I had 2 hard boiled eggs & 3 clementines for breakfast. Lunch I had a salad with baby spinich, lettuce, cheese, 1 hard boiled egg, cucumbers, and some balsamic vinegar. So, I was feeling like I needed some meat. Lexi made 2 teryiaki burgers, with cheese, no bread and nothing else. I was craving meat, so that is what I ate for dinner, especially since I had 30 minutes from the time I walked in the door til the time Everyone came for Lexi's family party. So, I bet you're wondering what I had for dessert? I served all the cake to everyone. I ended up having a small piece of ice cream cake, and walked away from the table to sit down in the living room with all the other adults. I wanted a piece of cheese cake! NO LIE! My mouth was salivating at the thought of eating it! I am only cutting out grains right now, I have not cut out everything else yet. So I Decided, just the ice cream cake! But OMG, that cheese cake looked so good!
I packed it all up & put it in the fridge & freezer. And I will be able to fight the temptation becaue I want to get healthy so badly! I have so many reasons to get this weight off. SO here again, I'm taking it one day at a time. I am very proud that I have survived 3 days, and 2 of which were celebrating days.
I felt a little bad about having the ice cream cake, but since I didn't go back for more, and only had a small piece I was happy with my decision, because I know eventually, I will not be able to have any ice cream cake! And as a New Yorker, I LOVE CARVEL ICE CREAM CAKE!! I have it once a year, on Lexi's family birthday party to have it! So I did! This daily learning to eat differently and healthier is really exciting. I can close my eyes and see what I "WANT TO LOOK LIKE" although, I had a dream last night and when I was about to get on the scale (Like on the biggest loser) to weigh in, to see if I made my goal weight, and then I woke up! I guess, that will happen until I actually get to where I want to be.Funny though, because I tried to go back to sleep, and my dream was totally different! Why is it we never get to go back and finish a really good dream if we have woken up?
Well everyone, I'm going to say GOOD NIGHT! Hope you all have had a great day.
Godspeed!
Jenn
Jenn
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