You can't cross the sea merely by standing and staring at the water.
~~~Rabindranath Tagore~~~

I hate when I type up an entire blog, and have saved it, but then I hit some wrong button & it wipes out my entire blog & saves it blank! UGGG That is so frustrating.. I do that more often than I would like to admit.

Let's get on to today's challenges. It was a pretty good day. I started my day off with a strawberry protein shake instead of coffee. Which was actually almost a huge mess up, I accidentally poured the peach flavoring into the shake mix, but I was able to to spoon it out, and then put the strawberry in! I ABSOLUTELY HATE PEACH FLAVORING!!! UGH! That is one fruit that I Gag at the smell of it.
Then for lunch I had an apple pecan salad from Wendy's with pomagranite dressing & a little ranch dressing mixed. It was delicious!  For dinner, I didn't eat a whole lot, had boiled some chicken and then cut it up and put some mayo in it & made some chicken salad. Had not quite one piece of chicken from it. I was not really as hungry as I thought.

Lexi & I went to Walmart after I got off from work, and got some apples, lettuce, pecans & oranges & the pomegranate dressing, and a few other things.
I also bought 2 kinds of protein bars. Strawberry yogurt and chocolate peanut butter. The chocolate peanut butter has a small amount of wheat germ in it, but it's way down on the list, so it's ok to eat it. If it was ingredient 1 or 2,  I would not have it, but since it's like the 6th ingredient it is ok to eat it, besides it curbs my appetite like nobodies business.

So, I got several emails last night about my blog, and I have to tell you, that I absolutely love that everyone feels what I read, and sees between things, and through things and sees things maybe I can't see about myself. I LOVE the feedback. I have to say one of my friends, emailed me asking me where was my relationship with God during all these ups & Downs? And does that reflect my journey. She said all of these amazing things that as I read her emails, I cried my heart out, not because she hurt my feelings, but because she saw something deep within me, that I was almost torturing myself, trying to expect things from a man, or Lexi or from dieting on my own. So, I have decided, that I really need to put God back in the Middle of my life!  As I type that, I think of the bible study I edited for my author friend, and then I Lead the bible study last summer, with my Mom & my friend Margie who passed away of leukemia in December. And I woke up today, with God in my heart, thanking him for everything he was going to put before me, and I asked him to please be there with me on this journey because I can't do it by myself! I have to remember when I am at my toughest trials the one & only person who can be there for me is GOD himself. Man, will always disappoint me because that's what we are, not perfect people with lots of flaws but God loves me anyway and he will always be there for me, I just need to remember that!

I survived day one with great success, now I am going to kick back, watch the VOICE & then head to bed early.

Hope you all have an amazing evening.

GODSPEED!

Jenn