Life is not about perfection~

Life is not about perfection~
Or a quest for perfection.
Life is about enjoying what we have~
for as long as we have it.
~Jonathan Lockwood Huie~


Funny how no matter what we have in life, or what we look like, we always want something else. I remember being young and seeing the blond girls who had the perfect hair, perfect figure and what seemed like the perfect life. I prayed that God would send me a child someday who was just that perfect. I knew that I lacked something that all these girls had. Life seemed so easy for these girls. So I thought! 
When I grew up and had my daughter,  I got what I wanted. The perfect baby, with strawberry blond hair. She was just beautiful, perfect, 10 fingers, 10 toes and the prettiest hazel eyes & that strawberry blond hair that was just like her Daddy too. That little girl with the strawberry peach fuzz hair, turned blond & had these beautiful locks of blond curls by the time she turned 3. She was stunning! I am not just saying this because she is my child. People would stop us EVERYWHERE we went. And I mean EVERYWHERE!!! People would comment about how beautiful & stunning she was! I of course was so proud, she, was not happy with this and didn't like the attention. She looked like the "ALL AMERICAN GIRL" that my friend Matt commented about her looking like when she was about 8 or 9. I was so touched! That was the utmost compliment that anyone could have said.

Well my beautiful girl, doesn't see how beautiful she is! It makes me sad at times! But then I realized, she, just like all the girls that I thought were perfect in Junior High (Now called Middle School) & High School must have felt so pressured to look & be perfect and they weren't! Because although Lexi is perfect to me, she is not perfect. I don't expect her to be perfect, yet, she feels like at times that I expect her to be, so I have had to really work hard on my expectations! Don't get me wrong, I haven't lowered my expectations at all, I just set the bar, high enough for an almost 15 year old to reach! She's not 30.

Boy, has that helped with the stress level not just on her but on myself. I used to try to be the perfect Mom and perfect role model. Let's face it, I AM FAR FROM PERFECT! :) But that's ok! I make mistakes and some of those mistakes have been big ones! I'm learning to be happier by doing the best that I can, but not being perfect. As I expect from Lexi, & I tell her all the time, "Be the best Lexi that you can be." Nothing less, and if you strive higher than what you think you can do, have at it. Perfection, there is no one in this world that is perfect, so I am no longer trying to be perfect and neither should you! Just be the best that you can be!!

Which leads me to my mistakes, my weight... So not going to continue to beat myself up & I have to remind myself of that over & over again. I did really well today with my eating! Not grain free, but portion control. I had a coffee & a protein bar for breakfast. For lunch I had a 6" flat bread grilled chicken teriyaki with lettuce, pickle & black olives and a little lite mayo. I also had a diet soda and sun chips instead of potato chips. Then for dinner I had Lexi's awesome meatloaf with roasted red potatoes! They were awesome! She had never made meatloaf before and it was AMAZING!!! My child can cook! Me, I love to bake, she doesn't! She loves to cook & try & experiment with seasoning & such. It was the best meatloaf I have ever had! I love when she cooks for me! I told her what ingredients to add because I had gotten a recipe off recipes.com but I didn't have measurements. I told her to just do it to her senses because she flavors things to her senses and not her tasting them. OMG, still shocked at how awesome it was.

Tonight, I had a bottle of wild grape Smirnoff Ice. And that is all I'm having today! I think that was enough and it was all measured out. I have meatloaf & potatoes that I can have for lunch at work tomorrow.

Well remember, Perfection is not attainable, there is no one in this world who is perfect! Be who you are & embrace who you are, as you are, and if you feel like you need to change something about yourself. Have patience and remember it will take time. You may stumble & fall but pick yourself up & keep on going because someday you will get to where you want to be as long as you don't quit! For me, QUITTING IS NOT AN OPTION!!!!

Have a great night!
GodSpeed....