The only gift is a portion of thyself.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson
Life has really changed for me in the last year. Some of them have been some great ones and some of them have not. They may have started out great but ended less appealing. Less than a year ago, I was out of work, looking for a job and really didn't think I was going to find it. I had truly considered not going back into corporate work again. I thought maybe I was not cut out to be in an office setting.
But on unemployment I had to apply for jobs so I did. I applied for the job at Biologics in May and did not hear anything until September. I interviewed and got the job. It is a good place to work. Like any other job, there are things that will change as the company gets larger. When I was hired, I was employee 98. Now we have over 108 employees and the company is growing. I Love what I do. I get to speak to people all day long who either have cancer or their loved one has cancer. Sounds easy right? Not at all. I have a great relationship with so many of my patients. They each touch my life and make me realize how incredibly blessed I am in my own life, especially when I am down in the dumps, and life is hard, at least I have my over all health.
I have made some amazing friends and several of them will be life long friends. Friends that have become family. We do a lot together. It's really nice. I look forward to the growth and hope that I can move up the chain of command as time goes on.
So, at the start of the new year, I decided to make a LifeStyle Change. I took almost all grain out of my foods! It has been a lot easier than I thought. And although it is not for everyone, it has truly worked for me, more than any other diet I have ever tried. I have lost 37 1/2 lbs, and still losing, all since Jan 1. I am working so hard to lose weight and each day it gets a little easier. I have been able to stay on target most of the time even with a breakup, and having been sick dealing with a bad spinal tap & spinal headache. I can't believe that I have stayed consistent with losing weight. I am so proud of myself. I used to over eat when I was stressed. I always had a reason to celebrate with food. A big part of it really was to use my weight as my protector. I have always used my weight thinking a man would not want me if I was really heavy. That turned out not to be true. And although I have always used it that way, that is no longer a way of life for me. I no longer celebrate with food, I no longer eat when I am sad, eat when I am happy, nor eat when I am bored. I find a whole lot of other things to do so I don't eat.
The longer time passes and I look in the mirror, I will not ever let anyone make me feel like I am not good enough, not pretty enough, not worthy enough. I AM! I deserve to be treated with a lot of respect and I am finally realizing that I do not need to settle on someone treating me any less.
Well I am rambling tonight. I have a lot in my head! I will be back tomorrow night.
Godspeed!
Jenn
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