DRAMA, DRAMA EVERYWHERE...

That you may retain your self-respect, it is better to displease the people by doing what you know is right, than to temporarily please them by doing what you know is wrong.
- William J. H. Boetcker

So I have had way too much drama in my life lately & I SO DO NOT DO DRAMA WELL AT ALL! So today I decided to take myself out of it. It was my own drama of course, the end of a relationship and well, although we are going to "TRY" to stay friends, who knows what will happen. I am really hurt right now. And well, yea, really pissed off with him. My main concern is picking up the pieces & keep going. I'm good at that! That honestly is something I am a pro at!

My food intake has been really good as far as the quantity I am eating at a meal, but I know right now from the stress I have days that I am just eating a protein bar for breakfast, then grilled chicken for lunch then well for dinner, I couldn't eat so I didn't! :(
This is better than like I'd have done in the past. I'd have over eaten because I would feel like I wasn't good enough, and all those crazy emotions. I know that with this relationship, I can walk away and hold my head high, knowing I stuck it out, was honest and did everything I said i would do! See when I love someone, I don't tell them right away. I wait til they say it. And that was the same for this relationship. I was very hesitant because we lived in other states, and we waited a few years before we ever got involved like that, because I wanted to get to know him, and well I thought I did. And the hardest part is to walk away, knowing how much I love him, but know, that if it's meant to be we will find our way back to each other when the time is right, and well if not, we'll maybe remain friends. Who knows what the future holds??? I have let it go & given it to God, and well, we shall see.
That's the best I can offer. But again, I walk away, knowing I did everything right, and well, maybe, just maybe I should have listened to my gut. I'm not going to bash him, but he's a train wreck right now, and well, I needed to get off "the run away train!" or the "roller coaster" not sure which it was!

Anyway, life will settle down, I'll be going out on a blind date within the next week and looking forward to that.

Well I'm heading to bed!
HAVE A GREAT EVENING..
Godspeed
Jenn