It is neither wealth nor splendor;
but tranquility and occupation which give you happiness.
- Thomas Jefferson
Well it's Friday, the 27th and I was trying to figure out why I was so depressed today. I realized it would have been my 10 month anniversary with my now ex. We officially broke up just a few weeks ago. I am really sad when I think about all the broken promises. I truly believed in him. I truly believed in us. We had been friends for a long time before we started dating. Sometimes people aren't who they appear to be. It doesn't make him a bad guy, it just means we didn't work out. It's hard because he has been one of my best guy friends for so long. And we are still friends, but it's weird now. I try to tell him things and find that I am very guarded. I don't know if he has noticed it or not. But that's part of what happens when you break up & are hurt. He tries really hard now, and I know that God has a plan for me, not sure what it is yet though....
Another guy friend suggested that I join Match.com or one of those sights! I have done that one before, and not interested in that. SO I am as I type joining Christianmingles.com... YUP I am. I am not sure why yet. Just going to give it a shot and see what happens. There's a plan somewhere and I figure I really don't want to get serious with anyone until Lexi gets out of High School, but maybe, just maybe I'll meet a nice guy,, that I can have a good time with. That's all I want, someone I have the same interests with, someone who wants to have a good time, go out and catch a movie, or go to a nice restaurant, or even on a long walk. Someone who has an idea how to treat a woman like a lady and have him put me first. Not first before God or his kids, If he has any, but at least at the top of that list, like at least #3 and wants to spend time with me... I don't think that is too much to ask. I want someone who wants to watch old movies, and laugh, cook dinner and have a glass of wine/beer and just kick back and relax. Someone I can totally be myself with.
So, if any of you have any suggestions on some stuff I can't write about myself, feel free to make those suggestions but be kind... :) Describing myself is going to be hard....
Well Lexi is in Disney and having a blast, and tomorrow I have a 5k run. Not going to run the entire thing but going to attempt to run a little bit of it. So that I Can say, that I tried! Going with Susan and the rest of my work people. Not everyone, but a few of my good friends.
Thank you friend for suggesting Internet dating, I'm going to give it a shot!!! Ughh, going to step outside the box. Wish me luck! Here goes!!
Before I sign off, let me say, I did well with my food today, had a protein bar & 2 pieces of string cheese for breakfast, for lunch I had some grilled chicken, which I was not able to eat a lot of it because we went to Buffalo Wild Wings in Cary and the food & service were terrible and we even got a replacement and that was worse... Oh well, not a lot of food today but I am working on it. I'll weigh myself on Sunday and post Sunday night my loss since the last time I posted my loss.
Have a great night!
Godspeed!
Jenn
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