Faith is not the belief that God will do what you want.
It is the belief that God will do what is right.
~Max Lucado~

I know for me, sometimes that is a hard quote to believe. I know that God will do what is right, but sometimes, I just him to give me what I want. Why can't it be that simple? Yes, I know he does what is right, but really, why can't what is right, be what I want? Sometimes it is, but most times, it's not! And when I'm in the moment, I can't always see it, but as time goes on, and my life has moved into the direction that God has wanted it to move, I see everything unfold, and then I say...."OH THANK YOU GOD, FOR NOT GIVING ME WHAT I WANTED!"
He has shown me so many different things in my life, I look back and think, if God had given me what I wanted, OH BOY, I'd have been miserable. God has really taught me patience over the last year. Taught me that sometimes when you want something bad enough, we have to wait for it. No matter what that "Thing" may have been. Patience is not something that comes easy for me. I want to blink my eyes & be thin, after all, I blinked and put on weight! Well it seems like it! Does it seem like that for you?

I feel like there has to be an easy way. If it's so easy to put weight on, can someone tell me WHY? Why it's so hard to take it off? Is it to make us work hard so we won't put it back on? Because honestly, that doesn't work for me? I feel like I can look at food & gain 5 lbs. LOL I know, I know, that's not how it happens, but why can't I be the kind of person that eats what I love, and not gain any weight? How come so many people have that metabolism that they can just eat whatever they want, and they don't gain an ounce? Any answers to that?

I eat a well balanced diet on the weekend. And eat good portions too.
During the week, I drink my shakes, but my weekends are mine to eat healthy and I sleep longer so I am not eating or drinking as much. I will probably have a shake for lunch today though, since I am slow moving today. I did have 2 pancakes for breakfast with my coffee because I had 2 for lunch yesterday. So, since they were left over, I ate them today. I am learning to eat slower, and less. I'm eating on a smaller plate. I know that is a big part of it too. Portion control. Last night I had made the best dinner. I had rib eye steak and mixed veggies, they were so good. But for some reason, red meat just kills my stomach!
Starting tomorrow, I am going back on 100% grain free and drinking my shakes, I think the grain in my diet, having a sandwich every now & then is still too much for my stomach. Pasta, definitely a no, I love pasta.  But I have got to get a grip and get back with the program, so I'm thinking doing grain free foods, and drinking my shakes will help me lose weight faster & I will feel better too.

Lexi spent the night at a friends house & I need to pick her up in 1 1/2 hours and I need to get my butt off this couch. I have been here all day. Time to get moving. I took the dog out earlier, and happen to look towards my backyard & saw that my trash went all over my yard & my neighbors yards, so I was out there picking it all up! YUK! It was gross! It is hotter than Haiti out there again today, so I am going to do house stuff! Need to strip beds, and do laundry! Everything I have put off all weekend! UGH!!!! Monday comes way to quickly! But oh well, so grateful to have a job!
I am hoping Lexi will want to make homemade sauce today for my final pasta dish! I love her homemade sauce! No one makes better sauce than her, not even me! And it's all healthy too! Which is great!!!
Well I hope you all have a great day!

God Speed!

Jenn